I haven't felt this emotional in months - emotionally in the turmoil sort of way. I honestly don't even know what to write because along with that churning emotion is a legion of thoughts, and I am finding myself trail hopping each time a new thought occurs. We are both scared about change. Will I be down there, or will he be up here? I am learning the true form of compromise. Learning to let go and be at peace about the choice. I guess, after a nature, being mature about the choice as well. Emotionally, what can I accomplish that he can't? Where in this relationship is there give and take? Am I being selfish? Anyways, I will continue psychoanalyzing myself all the day long. Jesus, thanks for being here. Amen.