Tuesday, May 17, 2011

My Beloved asks me to abandon the self completely so that He may dwell within. This is a topic I am seriously studying in my personal time with Him but as well as trying to see how it impacts the rest of my day. How can He dwell within throughout the day? The greatest challenge that I find to this desire is the world's obession, perhaps even desperate drive to push upon every individual the need for self-glorification. We live in a generation where technology is named iPhone, iPod, iPad, etc. Other's have picked up on it and are now dubbing everything to the "i". I want to die to self daily. I want to slay it, shove it out the room, get rid of it through whatever manner. My identiy will no longer be me, but Him. My Beloved must have everything of me. I want Him front and center, Holder of my thoughts, Mover of my members. This is His sanctuary, but this santuary needs some SERIOUS cleaning. And not just a once or twice cleaning - a daily cleaning, an hourly cleaning. We have to keep cleaning out the corners, sweeping away that black silk, wiping down the dust. It needs to be spotless, and I know I can't do it. I desire for it to be done, but I know I can't do it. Only by dying to self, losing my identity can He, my Beloved move right in. It's the only way, because He is the Way.