Friday, February 26, 2010

a sacred intimacy

I spoke out
in the waking
hours as I tread
the path we
journey together

Cried from the recesses
of a troubled soul
not knowing how
or when but knowing
You will deliver

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Profound thought:  I cannot love unless I let Him love me.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

There are certain emotions I haven't felt in a long time. So long that when they appeared, I was surprised, taken aback, and thought, "I can still feel this way?" These feelings were a portal to my younger self, in the days when I thought those particular emotions were how I based my view on a slice of my world. Emotions, that took me by surprise and have got me thinking about how much I've grown in my walk with Him who has my heart.

But it was refreshing - it was like standing at a place near the open ocean, watching the sun slowly fall, and seconds later, watch it sink into the horizon while your breath is taken away by the magnificent array of colors blazing out before your eyes, all a while set within the frame of a passing breeze, the soft sound of water shifting against shore with the feeling of the sand against your skin - that's what it felt like.

And I embrace this entire emotional experience at this moment, in this time, and thank God that I remember that I can still feel this way and leave it at that. Something far Greater captivates me, and it will not last a moment, but an eternity.

Monday, February 15, 2010

I'm going a little wonkers at the moment. I have two upcoming projects due and getting them started and finished is similar to running a race barefoot with no water available. So, to inspire myself I've created a wish list for this summer, here it is!
  • read the entire Terry Pratchett Collection
  • read books, comics, and graphic novels
  • start and complete some short stories
  • volunteer at the public library
  • finish my paintings
  • study anatomy to improve my drawings
  • get involved in community/church activities
  • take a walk every day
  • clean out my closet
  • set up some cleaning projects
Yes, I like cleaning. I don't know what it is but it cleans my soul. 

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Most call it Valentines Day, and some are beginning to call it Singles' Awareness Day but I call it God Love's You Day. We are so caught up in the self around this time of year. This day has become the alter unto self, and since love, the foundation of God's self, has been contorted and twisted so terribly, this day could be seen as a sacrilege. So, I chose this day to recommit, re-form, and to remember my relationship with the most wonderful Person during this time. I celebrate the day because He first loved me and today I honour that love.

This year's vow to strengthen my relationship with God:
  • get out of my comfort zone
  • to recognize any threat that will obscure my relationship with God and to remove, while asking Him for strength to do so
  • to evaluate each day my time spent with God
  • to realize and strengthen the aspects that show and tell the testimony of His love for me (that my life is a testimony and how does God work His love through me?)