Wednesday, June 19, 2013

It's been a while. I haven't done much of anything artsy or remotely written inspired. I am living in a rat race of trying to work, breath and let go at the end of the day. I don't have a lot of alone time anymore and I am not complaining. This is merely an observation. Life has taken an entirely new direction since I've started dating. My mind was entirely caught up with my darling, but slowly, as the months continued their march, I began to disentangle myself from the all encompassing "us". I am learning to separate identity when appropriate and go with the flow when "us" arises.

The biggest hurdle at the moment is the inevitable I Do's and actually getting to that place in time. There is a gargantuan hill of paperwork to climb, but all must go according to the time line, truly, there is no other way. Friends, family are always suggesting short cuts, but really people, there is no other way. So he and I are enjoying the ride, getting to know each other better, and of course, only confirming what we've already known all along - we are fitted for each other. But I think the greatest blessing, for me at least, is the transition of self. I am taking each measured moment in this discovery of us, and finding out what I am made up of, and who he is, and what God is really about in the mix of us.

One day at a time, right?

Thursday, June 6, 2013

Today we did this personality analysis testing - essentially it was a workshop sponsored by work. It left me mentally drained, and if anything, as I reflect  this evening, a little depressed. Most of the information was a pretty accurate snapshot of my current personality, but the reason I am depressed is because I've been pegged. The message that was getting across was, it's okay to be fine with one's weaknesses but a person should focus on their strengths instead. As a person who was designed to grow and expand for eternity, I found this depressing. I realize some are introverted and others are extroverted. What I could surmise is that certain actions are associated with certain personality types. I don't disagree with that. I am an introvert, but in all honesty, I want to be challenged on taking extroverted actions at times. Anyways, I am just thankful that at the end of the day, I can come to the Master Designer and be assured that man's ways are definitely not the only way. Phew!

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

My 20s were stellar. I travelled. I made friends. I had good healthy fun. I look back at pictures and think, wow, I did so much. My 30s will have a markable difference. Marriage is on the horizon. I am no longer doing everything on my own. So, I look at m 30s and think, I will travel, I will make new friends and keep the old, and I will have fun, but not alone! I loved my 20s, and I know I will love my 30s as well.