I struggle with myself in regard to these areas. I kept berating myself over my inaction. Yet, at the same time, I spent a lot of time on professional development and cultivating and maintaining the long distance relationship with my bf. And as I write this, it now makes sense. Here I was bemoaning the slow death of my poetry, my writing, my art, my spiritual life and I just realized, I was focused on other areas of development.
So where does this leave me now?
After a four years absence from the art scene, I finally dove back in with a little push and motivation from a friend. I completed some drawings, sold a few pieces and took on some commissions. I made a commitment to do some art professional development (attended an art workshop in Calgary in September) to keep me regularly inspired and to meet other fellow artists in person.
At first, I thought I wanted to pursue art as a career. I researched the possibility of going back to school, I looked at the cost, and after attending the art workshop and talking to other artists, I realized I just need to stay the course. I don't need a degree, I just need to take advantage of the internet to learn. So I've follow a few art facebook pages and keep updated and active through these outlets.
As for writing, I made a goal to do a NaNoWriMo (National November Writing Month) and have been intensely focusing on research and familiarization of the writing process. Also, I am pushing myself to come back to this space to explore my spiritual explorations.
So why the drive, the push to come back to these creative areas? At the end of the day, it's not just about my personal development, but it's also a thought of the legacy I will present to my children. What kind of well-roundedness will they see as they get older?
So, here I am. Where will I go? What will I see with this return.