I've taken a vow of silence concerning my singleness and/or my desire to someday be married.

Silence, the complete absence of sound, or in my situation, no noise, no words concerning my single hood or my wanting to be married and that entails anything to do with the opposite sex. That includes talking about male friends. Oh sure, I'll talk to them, but not about them to others.

I am realizing the futileness of speaking about any male friendships when it comes back to haunt me in context to my singleness.

It is best to be silent. Hence I begin this stage of my life

my life's theme seems to be in search of a new heart because the one I got is a thorny stone.

This morning, as I spoke with Him about taking my heart and giving me a new one, He spoke to me about wanting my "deceitful above all things" and "desparately wicked" heart. It stopped me right in the middle of my words back to Him. You want my absolutely corrupted heart?! The fact He wants it is what is amazing! The fact He desires after it, because more than anything in this entire world, universe and His kingdom, He desires to give me His heart, and that thorny stoned heart is definitely in the way!

Hearing this from Him every morning is very humbling!! It keeps bringing me to my knees and raising up my hands skyward in absolute praise! 

I am so forgetful, but the thing is, I always remember that I am forgetful. I spend so much time in the cleft of His Rock, that at times when I step out and see the world beyond that Cleft, I am reminded of the insanity out there and the peace in here. I am reminded, especially when I read or hear the stories of those unawares of His protection, His love, His interest in the minute aspects of our lives, and hear the absolutely hopelessness in their voice.

I am reminded of the reason why I live and breath and have my being in Him. Thank You, Beloved!

I am on my way of discovering sacred living - what it means to claim a verse and affirm by living it. At the moment I am affirming Psalms 141:3 - Set a guard, O LORD, over my mouth and keep watch over the door of my lips. So simple, to the point, but when affirmed, begins to show forth a multitude of complexities within the human soul. I am thanking Him for watching what comes in and out of these lips today! Amen

I am thankful; I am thankful; I am thankful because I am blessed, I am treasured, I am loved, by Someone who knew my before I was created in my mother's womb, who knew me intimately before I came to be.  He pours out His love to me daily in all manners of moments, happenings and just the everyday minutes. 

So ends the first day of the new year...This year will be another year of hope, of faithfulness, of love, from Him to me - this I know, however, in this new year, I am claiming through the power of His blood, a renewing of mind AND body in Him daily. This will truly be a challenge, for myself, but definitely not for Him. I am blessed :)