School is done and again for the second time in my life I am left wondering what I'll do with it exactly. Oh I know my Father will provide but it is in the time between that I am left wondering what I'll do with myself as I wait. Of course, I don't mean physically but mentally. I do feel a little lost even as I make attempts at cover letters which I equate to biting nails. I can't believe that I am done school and barely can breathe when now I must join this new band wagon of "finding a job". Jesus, preserve me!

so powerful and so true...amen!

I Love Me, I love me Not: Why Self Esteem will never satisfy

I've come to see this myself, and now I've found someone who has talked about it.

I've grown so much in my walk with God during these last two years. Going to a public/secular university while situated in a some form of Christian domain has been a very fulfilling experience. I've learnt so much about myself in context to God and so much about God in context to myself. Every situation I am in life, I learn something new about God. I learned why the Sabbath is so important. It's all about relationship and that quality time I spend with Him.

I learned God can be shared in absolutely every facet -- from my smile to my attitude to sharing simple truths about Him. I learned that anything difficult is an opportunity for God to shine in my life. I lean on Him. We work together and together we finish. Difficult times aren't about me, but about Him.

I learned that I am a self-centered human who must daily put Jesus as the focus of my life. I learned that anything and everything I go through Jesus went through. I learned that I am loved, treasured and pursued by my Father. I learned that I must recognize my hormones in the context that God created them for a purpose and I must monthly accept this.

I learned that I can reach all people through my profession and that I can share my Father in something as simple as a smile and the attitude of going the extra mile. I learned that this place is not my home, but I wait and share Him until He comes for me.

I just had another revelation this morning: Christ is my reflection of how to deal with life. He did it; He is my great example. Christ had a cheerful continence even though He probably felt entirely the opposite. He was happy for the sake of those around Him, and He was happy because He remembered His Father in all His dealings. It is perhaps why He spent so much time in prayer; to not despair. I was feeling down and now I realize (or my Father pointed it out) that Jesus had the same moment as me.

this week, we've been out of sync. I have no idea why. We're not jiving...it might be because at this particular time of month I'm more attracted to the opposite sex, or drawing unto myself during this time, but this week, I feel as though we're not connecting. It makes me moodie and contemplative...

I know I am being blessed but I don't see it as blessings; they are conversations between God and I; a question I have posed and He has answered. And blessings are framed within peaceful or troubling settings. Whatever the case, they are conversational topics I like to bring, share and discuss with my Father.  And to me that's beautiful.

The hardest thing to do in some situations is breathe. I get into a moment where I want to keep going and I forget to breathe. Stop, breathe and step away and for a space, let it be.