One thing that I love about my Jesus is that He is faithful, He is patient and His mercy is new everyday. I was reminded of this last night. I had been stumbling along for the last few months, disillusioned, in the pit of self-loathing (after a manner), and just confused, and last night, I called out, Make it simple for me, cut it down, throw away the access, simplify it!

I haven't been having heart to heart conversions with Him for awhile; I was focusing on the by-products of my relationship with Him. Accomplishing in eating better, loving better, focusing on my other half, focusing on understanding His promises, just not talking to Him, or focusing on Him. I realize now, I was reading a lot of other books, and not strictly, His Word. I was reading other books that were about His Word, but it wasn't enough; I was slowly starving. All I need is His Word and His Spirit to direct my life. He has led me through tremendous mountains just through these Two.

Great truths He has shown me just through These Two. In the books I read, I see that others have come to these Truths, and they write about their journey, and share the truth, but I need to walk my own journey with my Beloved, and share my testimony by living my life within Him. It may never be required of me to write a book about this journey, I just need to live it out.

Even here, in this space, this is a testimony. In the paragraphs above, this is Divinely Led. These throughts were not present last night as He brought me back to His Basics. Look at Paul, Peter and John, the key writers of the NT, they had nothing but His Word (OT) and His Spirit (Acts 1:5,8), and look what they produced? More of His Word, and more of His Truths. They had a close initimate relationship through these two simple but powerful channels. 

So I praise Him!! For He is truly my Shepherd, and I lack nothing. He has caused me to lie in green pastures, and leads me beside quiet waters, refreshing my soul. He guides me along the right paths

for his name’s sake. And when I walked through this dark valley of confusion, I knew He was right beside me, and did not despair because I knew He would bring me out of my confusion.

AMEN!

I am humbled. I've been reading through Gary Thomas' Sacred Marriage, and I am really wrapping my brain around his presentation of a holy marriage and not necessarily a happy marriage. Read the book, it'll get your head gears moving. 

Zephaniah 3:14-17 have become a favorite. As I recall it to my mind over and over again, it sinks into my bones, but having reread it this afternoon online, I realized I missed some of the verse! Here it is again:

14 Sing, O daughter of Zion!

Shout, O Israel!
Be glad and rejoice with all your heart,
O daughter of Jerusalem!

15 The LORD has taken away your judgments,
He has cast out your enemy.
The King of Israel, the LORD, is in your midst;
You shall see disaster no more.

16 In that day it shall be said to Jerusalem:
“ Do not fear;
Zion, let not your hands be weak.

17 The LORD your God in your midst,
The Mighty One, will save;
He will rejoice over you with gladness,
He will quiet you with His love,
He will rejoice over you with singing.”

I was walking with my Beloved this morning, and we were discussing my spiritual role in the lives of the women around me, revealing to me that I am a spiritual sister/mother. That each individual is liken to a talent, and that the time I spend with them increases their spiritual value. Of course in the same breathe, He said I can't do this by myself.

It's true. The only way I can reach these women is if I am nourished by my Beloved, spend time with Him, share with Him, reveal to Him my heart, allow Him to pursue me, daily ransom me. He, of course, is becoming more and more beautiful to me, and I can't help but want to spend more and more time with Him - to daily embrace the one Person in my life whose love is tender, passion and compassion is complete!

I am truly blessed, and yet I feel saying this is so minimal. I know that I must share this blessing, share what it is like to be loved by Him! Words are always useless, so to action I am called. May He give me the right motions to share in the lives of the women around me. Amen.

A text I want to share that is impacting my life on a daily basis.

Sing, O daughter of Zion! Shout, O Israel! Be glad and rejoice, O daughter of Jerusalem! The LORD has taken away your judgement, He has cast out your enemy. The King of Israel is in your midst, you shall not see disaster no more. ~ Zephaniah 3:14-16

A lot has happened in the last 48 hours. My paradigm of Jesus has shifted drastically, and this is so incredibly beautiful to me.

I am understanding my gender in context to my relationship with God. I am a woman and I am going to connect to Him differently than a man would connect with Him and He will speak to me in a way that I can understand as a woman.

I am beginning to read the Word through the eyes of a woman rather than through the "eyes" of a man. Too long I have been using phrases that are masculity based such as being full of His glory (male) rather than being full of His beauty (woman). I now understand!

And He romances me! Not romance in the context of the world but in context to His Standard. As a woman, He will reach me in context to my Original Design, the Pattern He created in all women. As I embrace my Original Design, I am led into an awakening realization that He is Beautiful to me, He pursues me, woos me, cherishes me, guides me, refines me, gently leads me, shows and tells me that I am Most Precious, most Beautiful and Lovely to behold. Wowzers!

How can I say all of this about Him? I am embracing His Design for me, and in the process He is giving me a new eyes, a new mind, a new heart!

Beloved, lead me in losing my heart in Your Heart.

August 31 is my deadline with my Beloved. It's almost exactly 3 months away. My sister also has a deadline: June 28th. Amidst these prayer deadlines where we are asking for His answer in very specific ways, we take comfort in the fact that He says, have faith as small as a mustard seed. We are wanting to grow that mustard seed.

So, deadlines. To focus my mind in prayer, in resting in His assurances I am going the next step: fasting. I will abstain from meat, sugar, and eating late at night, and will drink more water, and walk more each day. This is rather small compared to what my Beloved did when He was on earth during His ministry. The Spirit calls me to a particular committment in questing our specific prayer requests.

I am so EXCITED to what He will reveal when this time has come.